all about me
my name is lee. i love the lake. when i was a kid i wanted to be a novelist but now i want to be an art teacher. i've been here for twenty two years but it feels like longer. i am gay. i like stories about god but i wasn't allowed to believe in him as a kid so i don't know how to now. when i grow up i want to be smarter and kinder. i have a mean streak and i cut time away from myself like ribbon. i live a wonderful life and i buy minty shampoo. i love the feeling of cold air. i lost my family for a long time. when i tell stories about my mother i want to say "i". i play guitar but i am not very good. i like to take the train to chicago. i want to tell you the truth but i'm better at narrative. let's try to be clear. i'm a college student and i'm not very good at that either. i act as the preschool coordinator for reading programs in the summer. this is the first time in my life i've had enough quiet to understand my thoughts as i think them. i'm getting better and what does that make me? something else entirely from what i've been most of before. i'm a wicked time witch. i'm a painter. i say things over and over to make sure they're real.
my favorite art
currently interested in wassily kandinsky and paul klee. i want to find out more about the blue rider and modernism in general. and their stories! i watched a paul klee documentary once but i fell asleep. not for lack of interest! it was so beautiful and calming. i want to learn more about their friendship too. maybe eventually i can write my own posts about art history and what i've learned about it or found interesting about it from a contemporary viewpoint. i wonder if i am so interested in the stories of the people behind art mainly because i want people to take that away from my work. maybe its the best way to remember myself; as viewed through the lens of my work. it is better than uncontrolled, natural depictions. is that a bit crazy? the images below are hosted off-site. i want to get used to hosting more of my own images in house. it's hard work though! i haven't been this deep in html in a long while.
i like avant garde and formalism. i've been wanting to learn more about bridget riley too. i want to write an essay soon about how much shapes and formalism will suck you in. i felt like once i started going back and drawing purely formalist stuff i started to feel embarrassed, like i had skipped important lessons and i was so far behind. figures seem years out for me to return to now. some part of me now feels like i won't earn them until i master my shapes! i just realized i've been saying bridget riley's name wrong loudly and publicly for a long time. whoops. i still have a lot to learn. but kandinsky, klee, and riley all have felt like they were personally blowing my mind open! totally made me rethink my approach to art. i wanna learn to do stuff like that. even their representational work all feels to be speaking to something deeper than visuals. or somehow so distilled into shapes that it stops being physical but rather spiritual.
